Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Smiles - 4/17/12

Today was the first test in my Drug dosages and Calculations class! Have no fear this is not what made me smile. In fact it had quite the opposite effect! I have never been so afraid of numbers in my life. The more I worked with it the worse it got and I ended up just being done. Not that all the questions were answered, but done all the same.

So although this was not what made me smile today it did lead up to it. You see there are few things better after a bad test than a Diet Coke and laughter with your little sisters! I was laughing so hard tonight I had tears running down my face. I am not entirely sure is they were tears of joy or sorrow... But I will believe it was joy!!

I love my little sisters!!

Monday, April 16, 2012

30 things that made me smile!

Today is my Birthday and it seems appropriate to list 30 things that made me smile today!! I know that is a big number, but I am sure that I can come up with at least that many!!

1: Sleeping in!
2: Waking up to Happy Birthday messages!
3: Being asked to Breakfast by one of my best friends!
4: Flowers from a 3 year old!
5: Getting a Begrudging Birthday hug from a 2 year old!
6: Having Launa's class sing Happy Birthday to me!
7: Phone calls from people I love!
8: My text message alert letting me know that somebody else was thinking about me!
9: Cake!
10: Lunch with Janice and Jerilyn from work and not talking only about work!
11: Happy Birthday messages on FaceBook.
12: Remembering I share a Birthday with somebody else and sharing my flowers with her!
13: Shopping!
14: Spending no time studying for a test I had to take tonight and getting 92% anyway!
15: Spending time with my family!
16: The Sunshine!
17: Talking to my Brother over Skype!
18: Seeing my Grandma and getting a hug!
19: Having the "It is my Birthday attitude" and therefore doing what I wanted!
20: Ice cold Diet Coke!
21: My Mom!
22: My Dad!
23: Having the day off work!
24: Driving through Sardine Canyon and seeing signs of Spring!
25: Ice Cream
26: My mom and sisters wanting me to come by... even it was only for a minute!
27: Listening to my new Air Supply CD and having a private concert in my car!!
28: Finding out at the check stand my purchase was 50% off!
29: My roommates!!
30: A Birthday Party in Stars Hallow!!

It has been a great day! And even though 30 is hard and there have been a few tears. I know that it is going to be ok!! They always say "You are only as old as you feel!" If this is true I am 21 and holding!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Made me Smile 4/15/12

Today is the start of my Made Me Smile Posts!!

Few things are more smile worthy that an impromptu "Road trip" with Launa! She got a new CD we wanted to listen to so we decided to make an afternoon of it. We grabbed whatever snacks we could find in the cupboards and hit the road. We listened to the CD and just chatted the hours away... We have tendency to do that!!

As we looked at the dashboard of my car with our "Road Trip" evidence laying there, Launa said "Oh I love us!!" I have to agree with her!!

I needed that.

We have all been in a Sacrament Meeting where the spirit is so strong it makes you cry. I was in a meeting like this today. I wish there was a way to bottle the feeling that was in the room and keep it for later use. I guess in a way that is what I am trying to do with this post. I want to be able to look back on this in the coming months and remember exactly what I felt today.

A sweet Sister Missionary recently return home and we were privileged to hear her speak today. She returned from Bolivia last week and brought many sweet souvenirs with her. Not the kind she packed in her suitcase and gave to family and friends upon her return. She shared with the congregation today the souvenirs she had neatly packed into her heart. Stories of faith, love and conversion were shared. She told of a women well into her 90's who found the joy of the Gospel. A sweet sister who found the love and forgiveness of her Savior and joined his fold. We were also told of a gentleman who found the support system he needed in his family, friends and most importantly his Savior.

I was touched by each story and my testimony was strengthened. She then shared a scripture that touched my heart: Luke 22: 42-43. In this scripture an angel is sent to the Savior to strengthen Him. She asked the question, What do you think the Angel would have said to him to give him the strength to continue with the Atonement? After a minute she said something to this effect of she thinks the angel said "Do it for...." She said she imagined the angel telling the Savior all of our names, giving Him the strength to do it for us.

I am not able to fully understand the Atonement and all that my Savior went through for me. However, thinking of it in this way made it so personal to me. I had tears running down my face and I was filled with love for my Savior. He did it for me because he loves me!!

Another moment at church today that got thinking was during Relief Society. The lesson was on exaltation, which was bound to be a great lesson all on it own. At one point we were discussing the fact the we lived as spirits before we came to this earth. This made me reflect on my Patriarchal Blessing and the insight I have there into my spirit and the things I did in the Pre-existence. I love my blessing so much. This was a good time for me to think about the person I am in contrast to the person I can be. I have some work to do in order to make all that I can be come to pass, and now is as good as time as any to get started.

I love Gospel of Jesus Christ. I love being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I know where I came form, why I am here and where I am going!!

Hey are you still there?

I know that I have to be the worlds worst blogger. I started this blog with such good intentions and it all went to POT!! I am sorry to those of you that look everyday for some words of wisdom to be written here only to come up empty handed... Thanks for loving me anyway!

Dear friends... Hold on to your seats because I am back!! I can not promise words of wisdom or even anything worth the 5 minutes it might take you to read it. However I can promise you that I will be posting more often.

You see I am about to become old in just a few hours and it is a great time to make new goals. So here goes...

I have a goal to post daily about something that makes me smile!! I have found there is an awful lot in this world of ours that is cause for alarm. On the other hand there is even more out there that is cause for JOY. I intend to find at least one everyday and force you to read about it!!

Just to be clear I am fully aware that I can not force you to do anything. I do not intend to hold a gun to your head and enjoy the things that make me smile. I will not be coming to your homes every night to see if you have looked for a new post. I just don't have time for that, not to mention the fact that I do not own a gun.

I hope this new blog goal will be as fun in real life as it is in my head. Here we go...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Who the heck to I think I am???

So here I sit on my couch with tears in my eyes, wondering who the heck I think I am. Why do I think I can go back to school and do well? How do I think I am going to find time to study and work? How will I afford to live if I quit my job? I just wonder if I am cut out for this...

I am not as young as I once was. Maybe I am loosing brain cells or something but I am not doing well. I am not sure how to study anymore. I don't know how to make my brain remember the things I read. I don't know how to make it make sense to me. I am not sure how to make the information become more than just words on a page. I am just not good at this....

I am not writing this down on here to make everyone feel bad for me or worry. I am need to vent it out. I know that attitude is everything and that if I think I will fail... I probably will. I just need to have a minute to freak out and consider dropping out of school!! I won't really do it, but it is . Also I know that whether I know every step of the Nitrogen Cycle or the difference in Prokaryote and Eukaryote organisms does not reflect the kind of nurse I will be. I just can't help but think that if this class is not sinking in then... Who the heck do I think I am!!??

So I will shed some tears and have a minor freak out and then go to bed. But before I go to sleep I will say my prayers and be thankful that my professor will drop a test!!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Sanka ya Dead?

Hello there my Blog Friends!! I am sure that you have all been wondering if I am alive. I mean who would blame you? It has been months since I have written on my blog. And because I am a self absorbed type of person... I like to believe you are all waiting with baited breath for a post from me!!

Well the wait is over and now you have a new, long, and hot off the press post from yours truly!!

I want to give you an update on my life!! Because why not let you all know all the inner working of my wonderful life! Buckle up my friends it going to be a fun ride! Also I want to make you aware that this is truly a journal entry, I want to make sure I have some of these memories written down some where! So I am sorry for the length of this post... Feel free to use that little "X" in the top corner at any time! :)

1: I am still living at my brothers house and I love it! We have a blast as roommates and really love all the space we have! Heck if we get sick of each other we can just go down the hall and it is like whatever is going on in the living room is not happening!! ( Launa I am sure that you know what I am talking about! :) I still have a the best roommates in the world and I love them. I would not be able to go through my life if I did not have these girls along with me. Life is hard, but having people in your life that know what you are going through makes it OK!

2: I went through the Temple on September 8th!!! It was truly one of the most wonderful days of my life. I have looked forward to this day for years. I have prepared for years and the timimg never seemed to be right. I kept praying for the time to be right, knowing that at some point it would be. When I met with my Bishop for tithing settlement last year and mentioned that I would like to go through the Temple when my Brother and Sister came home in September. He said OK lets keep visiting about that and see what happens. I will be honest I thought that this was once again not going to be the right time. But something amazing happened a few months later. I was in Sunday School and the ES came up to me asking that I meet with the bishop after church that day. When I got there he wanted to talk about my plans for the Temple!! I had not fallen through the cracks, he wanted to help me make my plans a reality! I am in no way saying that other bishops did not care about me or want this to happen. I have been blessed to have wonderful bishops along my way. I was simply blessed to have a wonderful Bishop at the time when the timing was right!!! So I kept planning, reading, studying and praying and meeting with the Bishop. The time was getting closer to when Keven Todd and Michelle would be here and that is when I planned to go, so they could be there with me. I knew this is what I wanted to do, but I needed to know that my Heavenly Father was OK with this. I am sure that you all have felt this at one time or another. The Fast Sunday in August was a wonderful day for me. It was the day I asked Heavenly Father to let me know if he was pleased with my decision. I went to church that day and had my prayers answered in so many ways. In sacrament meeting every adult that bore their testimony spoke about the blessings of the Temple. In Sunday School we learned about the Temples of the Old Testament. In Relief Society it was the Presidency who was teaching and she gave that lesson for me. I am not sure how this process works but I am pretty sure that she could have picked any topic. But she chose to gave a beautiful lesson on the Temple. I was given my answer and was on the right path!! I was asked to have another meeting with my bishop and much to my surprise it was my Temple Interview!! This was a wonderful interview and I know that Heavenly Father was not only aware of what I was doing but He was also happy and excited for me! Saying YES never felt so good!!

After meeting with my Stake President I was only a few days away. I was going to take a big step on my road back to my Heavenly Father. I chose the date of 9-08-2011 in the Logan Temple. I had made my calls to family and friends letting them know if they could make it, I would love to see them there. I know it was a sacrifice for all of them to be there with me. The love and support there for me is not something I will forget!! I love to see the Temple has always been one of my favorite Primary songs. I love to see the Temple, I went inside that day!!

3: Keven Todd, Michelle, Kaitlyn and Brycen came home for a visit!! It was the best 2 weeks of my summer!! We spent as many minutes together that we could! We had card game, lots of food, laughing and love! I needed to kiss my little people and hug their parents! I was counting down the days for months and once they landed all was right in my world!! While they were here we had "Fakesgiving" complete with all the fixin's! We had turkey, mashed potatoes, gravy, rolls, petite peas, cranberry cult like behavior, poems, pies, frog eye salad, the traditional huge bowl of olives, pumpkin roll (with pumpkin), lots of laughing and fun!! But the best part for me was that my dad was there. He has not come to a family party for over 10 years. But it was just like old times, he spent his time talking with all my cousins, Michelle's family and even my mom and aunts!! It was truly something to be thankful for!! I am not sure what happened to him to soften his heart but I give lots of the credit to a little girl named Kaitlyn! She loves her grandpa and really she does not know him that well. But she is always talking to him, holding his hand and loving him with her whole heart. I beleive her little spirit knows more than she does and she is softening his heart, one hug and kiss at a time!!

4: I went back to school this fall!! Do you ever wonder "Who in the Heck do I think I am?" I have been asking myself that daily for the last month! I know now that there is a reason you go to college young. Going back is harder than I thought. I need to get a better grip on managing my time, getting to all my classes and making sure the information is sticking. I took my first test and lets just say it is a good thing they drop one!! I am taking Nutrition and Microbiology this fall. It is hard but... I can do hard things! Cross your fingers for me that I did more than give a donation to USU a month ago!! I am also working full time still at the hospital and supervising the Phlebs. I think I am just asking for stress!!

5: This has been the summer of Concerts!! I love a good concert and this summer did not let me down!! I saw: Due West, Lo Cash Cowboys, Yagertown, Diamond Rio, John Michael Montgomery, Clay Walker, Emerson Drive and Josh Groban!! I also saw Little Mermaid, Mary Poppins and Civil War and Anything Goes!! I am feeling pretty good about my summer fun!!

Well that is a little catch up on me!! If you made it this far in this post there are only a couple of possibilities about you! 1) You really love me and want to know all about my life. 2) You are really bored and need something to fill your time or 3) Both 1 and 2!! I will hope for 1 or 3, but at any rate I am back in the bloggin world! I will do my best to update more often... I am sure that will make your dashboard a little more lively!!

See you soon!!